#duckeggs #overeasy with cheese and toast. These are as fresh as they get #backyardfarmer #pekin #eggs #breakfast #backyardducks #ducksofinstagram
He said it was really cold outside this morning. .. I wonder why? Lol #sillyman #whiteboyissues
Watching #mickeymouse in her #jammies
Morning y’all! Ellie selfie #selfie
Omg can I be done now lol! #babynumber5 #pregnancynumber6 #theend #homestretch
I absolutely adore her! Reading a book and watching lifetime with me. #mommasgirl
So this time last year ben and I were finally settling into the thought that we were going to be a family of 7. Past the oh my gods and the what we’re thinking…..planning my birthday dinner and decorating the house. Little did we know that a little over a week from then we would find out that we lost our child. Last year was the saddest Christmas that we have ever had in the 11 years we have been together.
Fast forward…..today we are 37 weeks and 1 day pregnant with a little girl that we weren’t suppose to have this year. But clearly even with our planning and caution God had other plans. At moments I am yet again frustrated but the trials of pregnancy during these last few weeks, people’s unwanted advice and trying to give me the truth about pregnancy because of what they experienced. What they don’t know or understand is how emotionally wrapped up I am with christmas, bills, our loss, trying to make sure that a dependable support system is in place for the other 4 childern and add how debilitating the last few weeks of pregnancy can be on top of it all. At the end of the day I want is our little girl here in my arms where i can see and make sure that she is safe, healthy and I can get drugs to help ease tge process of getting her here this time. Lord I’m unplugging all my boxes and peoples voices all my focus will be on you. I get it i can’t plan this out and I’m not in control….